What it means for me to learn to trust

So today, I am not going to complain. I got to go for a walk this morning aroud the park. The sky was beautiful, and the water was incredibly dark. It looked magical as the sun was coming out after an early morning storm.

Everything today is good. B. has been so supportive and wonderful the last few days while I have had a confidence crisis. He so sweetly said, "Of course you're a good therapist." And he reminded me of comments from my clients and even others who have told me that they know I will be a great therapist. I may not feel that way now, but believe I have the desire and strong intention that will help me do this work.

No shows or not, difficult Pro-Sems that make me feel I am doing everything wrong, and me feeling like I am stumbling--I can see all of these things as part of my journey today. I re-read my assessment paper after my walk and I was touched by the awareness of where I am and my vision of where I am going. The message that underscored everything I wrote was about learning to trust myself, believe in myself.

I'm reminded of a quote that a dear freind gave me in a book titled just that--Believe in Yourself. She had the book bookmarked to open to this quote: "If you don't know the answer, perhaps you should rephrase the question." On the opposite side of the page was another quote that she wanted to give me. "Self-acceptance gives you the much needed energy and freedom to grow." Both of these are great things for me to keep in mind. Thank you!

So, just for today, I am working on accepting myself, exactly where I am, right now, with all my bumps and my glory.