Progress is nobody’s business
There is something so wonderful about Saturday mornings. I’ve always felt that, even as a kid. It’s a day when you have free license to do whatever you want. Even when I have an enormous amount of work to do, I always try to keep Saturday to play. So, I get to go for a run by myself (I’m leaving Koya, because the poor boy is wearing a cone and can be a real bully when we run; he keeps hitting my legs with the cone). Then, a little studying, catching up on writing, and an early kung fu class.
I’ve been thinking about all the changes since we left module. So much growth has happened—in me, in my close friends. We have all faced major trials. It’s seemed much longer than 6 weeks. I question whether I’m ready to go back. There is something about now knowing how we are all watched. And some of the things the faculty want to see make me feel that we will have to appear to be something we are not, we have to learn how to play the game. I’m just about the most transparent person out there. I have trouble lying to strangers. Putting on an act with people I care about is all but impossible.
Maybe that’s not the answer. Maybe I just show up, as I am , and if there are changes that have occurred in the past few weeks, they will be outwardly visible. I went for a walk a little while ago with a friend from my I-Group. We are doing “The Work” together, at least we have started to with the intention of doing more, meeting more often. After our conversation, he quoted Katie Byron when he said, “Progress is nobody’s business.” It was good for me to hear. One of the things that is a challenge for me is not being self critical. Not analyzing my own progress. He’s right though. All we can do is show up, and give it our best. Progress is God’s business. Not mine.
Along those lines, I have to say that Lisa surprised me with a sweet little book of quotes the other day, which she bookmarked for me with two quotes to read. Here's one of them:
“If you don’t know the answer, perhaps you should rephrase the question.”
I’ve been thinking about all the changes since we left module. So much growth has happened—in me, in my close friends. We have all faced major trials. It’s seemed much longer than 6 weeks. I question whether I’m ready to go back. There is something about now knowing how we are all watched. And some of the things the faculty want to see make me feel that we will have to appear to be something we are not, we have to learn how to play the game. I’m just about the most transparent person out there. I have trouble lying to strangers. Putting on an act with people I care about is all but impossible.
Maybe that’s not the answer. Maybe I just show up, as I am , and if there are changes that have occurred in the past few weeks, they will be outwardly visible. I went for a walk a little while ago with a friend from my I-Group. We are doing “The Work” together, at least we have started to with the intention of doing more, meeting more often. After our conversation, he quoted Katie Byron when he said, “Progress is nobody’s business.” It was good for me to hear. One of the things that is a challenge for me is not being self critical. Not analyzing my own progress. He’s right though. All we can do is show up, and give it our best. Progress is God’s business. Not mine.
Along those lines, I have to say that Lisa surprised me with a sweet little book of quotes the other day, which she bookmarked for me with two quotes to read. Here's one of them:
“If you don’t know the answer, perhaps you should rephrase the question.”
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