A little knowledge can be a very dangerous thing...

Friday June 9th

I don’t think I’ve ever had a more perfect day. Woke up to the sound of the ocean and then sat on the beach watching the waves crash against the shore. I am sitting next to the fireplace, with the cool ocean breeze coming in the window. Yes, this is the perfect morning.

I ran 4 miles along the shore and felt completely alive. This time alone has been so good for me, so precious. I was thinking this morning how much easier life was before LIOS in some ways. I could blame others; I could blame circumstances. I don’t have that luxury anymore. It’s work to look at the part I play in things, to peel back the layers and see what’s true.

I’m reading 20 some books right now, all in different stages. I brought Blessings with me by Julia Cameron, the author of The Artist’s Way. The book is a compilation of “Prayers and Declarations for a Heartful Life”. This morning, I turned to a page about the heart being a true guide.

“For several centuries now, we have overemphasized the intellect. It is fine in its place.

It is not, however, the most authentic way of knowing.

The most authentic way comes from the heart.”
– Sonia Choquette.

This resonated with me, because I find intellect incredibly important. It’s one of the things I admire most about others and treasure most in myself. However, I’ve also seen how it can get in the way at times. One of my pieces of feedback from my I-Group is that I rely too much on my intellect. It is a safe place for me to reside; it means that I can remove myself from feeling. I’m struggling with just being, experiencing, and not analyzing.

Strangely, in the Family Constellation Training, the message came up again. “Do not attempt to understand it. It is not something you can understand.” That idea that I can’t understand something drives me nuts…

And yet, I also want to learn to trust other ways of knowing.