Wow

I’m running out of creative titles. I can see why some people forego them entirely. Today is the second full day of my internship, and I’m loving it. I’ve been able to observe two sessions with other therapists and their clients. In one of the sessions, I saw a lot of similarities between the client and myself. Listening as this woman spoke, I was very thankful that I'm in a program like LIOS based on experiential learning and self-reflection.

I know that I will still get triggered, and hopefully not often, but the realization that our program enables us (or forces us—depending on how you look at it) to do work on ourselves and aspects related to our families of origin, gave me a small bit of confidence that I might just be prepared to move into this next chapter in my life.

The therapist I was sitting with remarked that I picked up a lot in watching her, which felt great. I know, too, that more than receiving such validation from anyone else, it’s so important that I trust myself. And have confidence in myself that I am ready for this and can be of service to my clients. I think I’m beginning to see that it’s not about being perfect, or being fully “ready,” because when are we ever really “ready” for anything in our lives?

Instead, it’s about being present in the moment. Saying “yes” to whatever is. Saying yes to the moment in its heartbreak. Or joy. Or sadness. It’s also about being vulnerable, and allowing yourself to make mistakes and pick yourself up, dust off, and start again.